Inside Scoop: "The Audible Heart: Speaking To You, For You"

As you all may well know, I am in the process of writing my very first requested book entitled "The Audible Heart: Speaking To You, For You". And I wanted to give you a summarization of what the book was going to be about:

Many of us go through issues in our lives and can't seem to find an answer in our time of need. We always rely on our mind to handle our emotional or internal problems. Every organ is meant to handle a certain tasks and even though the mind CAN handle it, there's a more important organ that we forget to acknowledge. The main reason we feel the way we feel, our heart!

There's never an easy way to mend your broken heart. Getting your heart back in tact can take some time. And just because something is difficult, does NOT make it impossible (You will see this phrase come up a lot as an empowering reminder when you start to go through your trials).

Many of the situations you have or are going through, I've been there or am going through them as well. The problem is however, there is a HUGE lack of support or someone that can say "I've been through this, and you're not alone". So this is strictly my heart helping all of yours handle situations that the mind can never really touch. These are my attempts on getting you to listen to your heart and understand that it is more than JUST your lifeline, it can help you in your line of life.

This isn't just your ordinary "How To..." book. My book will also include poems that I write directly from my heart and is the reason why there was a request that I write a book. Because of you, I was pushed to write a book. So this is dedicated to all of you in hopes of bettering your outlook on life, your walk in life, and the problems in it.

The book will be broken into two parts: PART I will give advice on how to help SELF! Your outlook on life and ways to fix burdens of the past, present, and a guide for the future. It'll also help your views on people. PART II will discuss STRICTLY RELATIONSHIPS and how you can fix, better, or have a better way of finding one that can last longer than a season finale of your favorite show [LOL].


And there you have it, my summary of my upcoming book. I am so excited for it and hope that you all can benefit from it. It should be expected to be released this year. Working hard and will be needing all of your help so stay tuned.


Please help support me in ANY way that you can (ie. Posts, RTs, FB statuses, Blog entries). I want to reach a wide range of people and change lives. Thank you very much for the support already given and the support to come!


MUCH LOVE,

Jeleon

RANT!

Since it's early I can do this without having to entertain any ignorant people....here goes *clears throat*

Thanks to this generation, "gay" is no longer a lifestyle..it's a statistic and you all are playing into it like a game of spades...

You victimize yourselves and act as if the world is all against you when in fact you're against yourselves...

You SHADE, FIGHT, BATTLE, "SLAY", TURN YOUR BACK on each other and think it's cute but when someone OUTSIDE of it calls you out, u get mad.

Like ALL of our ancestors have said...you ARE what you eat! You call each other FAG, FAGGOT, BITCH, CUNT, that's EXACTLY how you are viewed

And STOP BEING SO GOT DAMN MESSY...you don't NEED to slob over a dude that has a body!! It just makes u tacky! Admire but DON'T DROOL!

Back in the day, being gay was ACTUALLY a lifestyle, where guys were in it 4 LOVE, SUPPORT, & UNITY. Now a days, it's just a BIG QUEER JUNGLE

I'm truly sick of it. You all need to see that it's NOT a problem with others it's a problem with YOURSELVES!

HOW CAN YOU ASK FOR ACCEPTANCE WHEN YOU ALL DON'T ACCEPT EACH OTHER?????? (Ask yourself that question and then GROW UP!)

Somebody has to be CUTE, HAVE A BODY, MONEY, CAR, HOUSE. Material things! Where the fuck is a HEART, PERSONALITY, INTERIOR THINGS???

ARE YOU CUTE? DO YOU HAVE A BODY? DO YOU HAVE MONEY? Stop asking for shit you ain't got GOLD DIGGER!

Half of you can't even call yourselves REAL Christians! Psalms 139:14 says: I WILL PRAISE THEE FOR I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE...

IF GOD MADE US WONDERFUL, who the hell are we to call each other UGLY?? How dare you challenge the works of Him! HOW DO YOU FEEL NOW?

AND I DON'T CARE WHO #SUBTWEETS ME...you can't take HONESTY/REALNESS so you bitch out and talk big under your breath! #TypicalGAY

Honestly, until the community gets better (which will never happen), being GAY will sound more of an insult than a supportive matter.

And since I'm on my #RANT, some of you all are stupid! You can't be BI and DL!!! How the hell can we tell you're BI if you're DL?? Duh!

GAYS make sooooooo many rules and can't even follow them theirselves let alone create a MANUAL for it! Being straight seems so simple!

In conclusion of this #RANT, DON'T EVER CALL ME GAY! Not until it becomes what it ONCE was, a UNIFIED, SUPPORTIVE, LOVING, LIFESTYLE. END

Call me RARE, suits me better :)

I LOVE HATE

So, this story MIGHT be a bit short...but I promise that if it is, it will be a POWERFUL message in it. So let's begin:

As you saw the title "I Love Hate" you're probably wondering "What the hell do he mean? Why should I LOVE hate?" Well here's why.

Everyday, we are criticized (whether directly or indirectly) for WHATEVER we do. And there are a number of reasons why they do it...but in my opinion, there's only 2 SOLID reasons why someone has the time and effort to hate on you.

REASON 1: THEY WANT TO FEEL SUPERIOR TO YOU!
They feel if they can break you down or make you feel any less than you were, then they have won! Most people that do this have nothing better going on in their lives and decides to pick on the first person they see doing something productive or something OTHER than what they're doing. Haters only come when success is on your mind and you're on the way to it. So they figure if they can stop you in your tracks and make you quit or give up, THEY SUCCEED. But what they fail to realize is that they, in return, won't be successful. HATING or being a HATER is a round trip vacation to nowhere. And the second reason plays into this reason.

REASON 2: THEY'RE INSECURE!
They are ALREADY intimidated by your strive to success and they see that you're doing YOU! So they feel inferior and start questioning themselves! Which brings forth the INSECURITY issues! If they didn't feel that way, then they wouldn't be trying to attack you. If they know their doing their thing then they should be supporting others or help one another to accomplish the common goal....SUCCESS! You do not have to put anyone down just to build yourself up...haven't we heard of asking for help on HOW TO GET ON THE GRIND? But in this "Dog Eat Dog" world..people only think that we gotta kill each other's pride to get to the PRIZE! Which is NOT the way to go. If someone hates on you, then don't take it seriously. They're only speaking out of the insecurities and the failures in their life. You should worry when no one's hating on you!

When that one is not being hated on, they themselves start to hate on...no one will ever know how it feels until the shoe is on their foot. My advice is to KEEP doing what you do! When you ignore negativity, it ceases. Negativity only fuels when you add to the fire. When you respond, you give them a reason to keep trying you. Because now they're in your mind! If someone can get in your head, THEY OWN YOU! Take your risks and put that middle finger up to WHOEVER opposes it. If you let haters direct your path, then you'll only be going where they want you to go.....NOWHERE!

So, think of your haters as UNPAID PROMOTERS that are fans of you. You gotta get your name out there to get known right? One person can't do it alone, so let the haters do your job! That way...everyone will know you before you get out there. Because trust, for every ONE hater, there are a MILLION of supporters!!! Just remember to THANK THEM!


I leave with this quote I came up with: TO ENTERTAIN THE IGNORANCE, MAKES YOU THE IGNORANT...TO IGNORE THE IGNORANCE, MAKES THEM YOUR ENTERTAINMENT!


Much love......even to my HATERS! ;)

Problem Solved (5 Steps To Handle Your Problem)

First off let me welcome everyone back && for those just entering my world...WELCOME! I took a lil' time off to work on my book coming in 2011 (Yay) and needed to work on it before I got behind...but I'm back and it's time to give you guys some fresh advice and more...READY? Okay, let's get into it:


So, we all have problems. With either ourselves or with other people. Sometimes we can't figure out how to handle it so it gets the best of us and gets us mad. Before I give you my 5 steps in attempting to handle the problem do know this:

YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF YOUR OWN EMOTIONS AND THE ONLY PERSON THAT CAN RUIN YOU...IS YOU!!!

Now that I let you know that, it's time to get into the steps....shall we? :)


STEP 1: ADDRESS THE PROBLEM

Well of course this would be first...before you attempt to fix the problem, you gotta fully understand WHAT THE PROBLEM IS? Some may have a major problem....others may have a problem that probably don't need to be entertained at all but needs to be anyway for their sake. This Step is not hard (Unless you have one of those 'Unknowns' -- which I'll explain in my book) so let's move on now that you have your problem.


STEP 2: PLAY THE PROBLEM

Now-a-days, there is almost EVERY song for EVERY mood. Even though it sounds corny, some people find therapy and healing through a good ole song that they can relate to. Now, if you're going through a relationship problem, then it's probably not a good idea to listen to "Bust Your Windows" or if you're sad I would stay away from songs like "I Feel Like Dying". Even though you probably won't believe it, music is VERY influential and can sometimes make people imitate what is being said in the lyrics. Me, personally, find that a good song to help me convert my negative energy helps me get over my problem. There is NO limit on how how many times you play it. MAKE IT YOUR SONG! Pretty soon you'll find yourself starting to feel better...and you're ready for the next step.


STEP 3: CLEANSE THE PROBLEM

Once you have addressed the problem and played its counterpart, it's time to shower up! Okay, now some people may be wondering "Why is taking a shower a part of the steps?". Here is why, for the deep-minded you can see that the shower can be mentally relaxing and can wash deeper than the dirt on your skin. If you open your mind, you'll see that you're not only physically cleansing your problems, but also mentally. Clearing your mind while having the issue can allow you to successfully handle your situation, no matter what it is. So, the next time you gotta let the water slide down and and your problems go with then.



STEP 4: CLOSE THE PROBLEM:

Closure means to finally let go or to end a problem, something, or someone. When everything gets resolved...admit that it happened and then let it go. You're NEVER really over something until you be honest about it and say "Yes it happened". Now don't come to this step if you're still upset or angry about the problem. To have closure is also to have peace with the situation. If you don't have peace with the problem, then that means you can't have closure because your anger will bring you back to the issue. So if you hit this step and you're still upset...try going back to step 2.



STEP 5: REMEMBER THE PROBLEM

One simple quote: "FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET"

Every experience is a learning one that you should only learn ONCE. Every obstacle was not designed to be easy. We struggle so that we can prevail. When we prevail, we experience. And when we experience, we gain! Let go and start to move on! :)



--Well, I hope you all got something out of this and hope it helps you out in the future. Comment & tell me how you feel. I would love to read and respond to your reactions! Much love. Thanks for reading!

100/0 Relationship

This is a classic case in majority of relationships and quite frankly...the reason why most people give up on finding love. We find ourselves victims of the "100/0 Relationship"...what is that you may ask? Well, I'll explain it with this a couple of situations:

- The times where you want to hang with your boo but they blow you off 95/100% of the time
- You call or text him/her more than he/she do
- You're the ONLY one that initiates a sensual moment & half the time they don't feel like "cuddling"
- They spend MORE time with their friends than with you

Kinda get it now? Well, to break it down, a "100/0 Relationship" is when you find yourself in a relationship with YOURSELF even though you're dating an actual living, breathing human being. It's when you show more affention, attention, & likeness/love to your partner than you receive. We've all experienced it & if you haven't, then more than likely you will.

Speaking from experience, I've been in an "100/0 relationship" for 7 months..don't get me wrong...it wasn't all bad but "bad" weighed more than "good". I was the one to call more, ask to hang out more, show affection & love more. I got it back, but every now & then....emphasis on the THEN! I was so stuck on having someone that I lost the main point of being in a HEALTHY relationship.

When you're in a relationship, it's supposed to be YOU & HIM/HER, not just YOU. Please remember this:

YOU DO NOT NEED TO HAVE SOMEONE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY! YOU HAVE YOURSELF!

Especially if you have to harm your heart doing it..you're not solving the problem. You're making it worse!

That's when you forget your standards. Because you're so stuck on having someone on your arms...you'll settle for anything & anyone just to have someone. That's crazy! People, why do we always have to suffer from the 100/0 Relationship? We always give more into it than we receive...


To be in a productive and a successful relationship means to not only give love, but to know that you're going to receive the same amount of love in the end... To all of my HARD lovers, I know how it feels..


To be blinded every single time by an fake imitation of what we think is love...and our hearts get broken constantly because we were too late to realize what was going on..but to all of you I say this:


LOVE HARD, BUT DON'T LOVE EASY...


We like everyone else need to be strong and wise about who we truly want in our lives...in these days, ANYBODY can talk their way into a "relationship", but it takes a good hearted person to filter out what qualities they really see fit to them... If we stop lying to ourselves and others and be true in knowing what we really want...then we will lessen the number of heartbreaks and depressions everywhere.


We are all destined for love...REAL LOVE..And when we find the one for us, it won't be a sense of "does he really love me" because if it's true and real...then it shouldn't be a 100/0..nor a 70/30, or 60/40..but a 50/50 Relationship..


So to all, don't give up on love...I know it hurts but through your hurting comes healing...you won't hurt always..that ONE for you is out there...


Waiting... To take you in and love you...


Love is such a beautiful and a good thing...


And if it is a good thing then it's meant for everyone to experience...but nothing can work if you don't believe that it will...you're gonna find that special someone..because the 100/0 thing..will be a thing of the past!

Got "Nothing" On Your Mind (Interlude)

Have you ever got the feeling where you knew something was wrong with you but you didn't EXACTLY know what was wrong with you?

Like you can't really put your finger on it. You can't tell if it's relationship problems, family problems, or maybe just because you cut your finger...ouch.

It's kind of an annoying issue when you suddenly become over things and don't know what drew you to it.

You know what makes it even more annoying,

When it not only effects you, it effects others as well...

Just like a contagious sickness, emotions can be spreaded also. We call that the Transfer of Energy or simply the transfer of energy.

You may not believe it but it's when energy from one party is reflected onto another...thus making the person feel the exact or nearly the same way.

Like the saying: "One bad apple could spoil the bunch"? <--Or something of that nature ;) It's true.

Let's say, HYPOTHETICALLY, you're in a room filled with "Happy-Go-Lucky" people at a small gathering. You, however, are the spoiled apple with an unidentified attitude. Hmph. Because of your rude actions and that snappy mouth of yours, people will begin to wonder "What the hell is wrong with you"?

Thus, drawing all of the positive attention into the negativity of yours! (Transfer of Energy)

But, in this case, it's NOT your fault. You did not forsee this crisis nor do you know what it is about.

Questions like these take the longest to answer because we don't know where to start or how to deal with it. We try so hard to single out ONE thing when it could be several things. It might have been that one event or a series of events. We don't know.

But what we DO know is this: WE ARE IN CONTROL OF OUR OWN BODY AND WE CAN CONTROL OUR MOODS.

It's not always easy but JUST BECAUSE SOMETHING IS DIFFICULT DOESN'T MAKE IT IMPOSSIBLE!

If you ever experience an issue where you catch a "fit" but don't know what it's about...simply ask yourself:

WHY???

Then reason with yourself. Why get mad if there's NOTHING to get mad about? Why work yourself sick trying to uncover the source of your anger when there's no need to initiate it...

Stop getting mad over NOTHING.
Better yet, stop letting NOTHING get you mad.

End (Love Making Pt.3)

Here we are...
The moment we have been waiting for...
I'm ready and you're ready....and now we're about to press to the end..
Our destination...CLIMAX
I bend back down on my fours and you retreive the lubrication and begin to moisten your stick and my hole..
Without any second thoughts, you lean forward and bite my ear..
as you sneak your buddy into to my system...
I let out a slight moan of discomfort, but you hold me tight and allow my friend to get used to your long, hard, stick...
You continue to bite my ear as my hole widens to suit your hung son...
You then rise up and begin to go slowly back and forth, gripping my sides as you continue the flow...
"ooooooh" "uhhhh" "uhhhhh" I moan as you work the spot between my cheeks...
This night is everything I've been waiting for...This night...our night...shared together....
I then reach back and grip your hips as I feel the motion of your body going in and out...
This feels sooo good......"oooooooh" I let out as you continue to beat...
Pat....pat....pat, the sound of your hips hitting my cheeks so wet....so hard....
Your eyes closes, as you feed my insides with your love....
Temperatures rise as we fall deeper and deeper into it...Deeper you're in it...
And the more I feel it...
Moans and the biting of my lips only signal you to go faster and deeper in...
You press hard on my hips...then pinch my cheeks with your smooth hands...
Suddenly, you pull out and aggressively flip me over to my back and enter back in...
I look into your eyes as you look back into mine...
I then reach down and begin to jerk....
The last stretch...We're getting closer...you begin to feel yourself cumming...
but slows down because you want us to cum together....
I then close my eyes for I feel myself about to bust....
"Here it comes" I Moan.....""Uhhhhhhhhhhh" "uuuuuhhhhhhhhh"....CLIMAX...
You then pull out and let out every single juice you had waiting for me....
White sensation all over my body as we satisfied our urges...
You then lay on top of me sharing our juices between our chests...
And then, as if the night couldnt get any better, you whisper "I love you"....
It was then, that my heart stopped and began to beat along with yours for I knew that...
"I Love you too"
Naked..and satisfied...We fell asleep, IN EACH OTHER'S ARMS.

The End!!