No "Good" Relationships

I Never dreamed of the day where...
You...no really, YOU..
Would come into my life and change it forever...
I'm forever cursed, better yet, blessed,
With the undying love that I have been subjected to partake of..
Every drip of love you lose is absorbed by me..
For what's yours is mines and what's mine is yours..
I sit outside, looking to the heavens, thinking...
Pondering, contemplating, and dreaming.
Can life get any better?
Because right now, in my heart, it feels as if it can only get worse...
People say that some things are too good to be true...
But I don't want to believe that you are just "good",
Good is a submarine word to hide one person's true feeling...
Good lacks the emotion for how you feel about something...
Which causes a person to not trust that "good" thing...
Because they feel no emotion...no true feeling...
So let me break the barriers, for all who are afraid...
Afraid to admit what the heart yearns to let out
Afraid of their fear of rejection, disappointment, and sadness
Afraid to let their "pride" go because of their little morsel of reputation that they have to protect...
Afraid......of love.
Here is how a heart feels, MY HEART.
You are NOT good!You are NOT a lack of an emotion
You are NOT a body without feeling!
You ARE AMAZING
WONDERFUL..
LIFE CHANGING..
EXHILARATING..
BREATH TAKING..
MY HEART, MY LOVE, MY BETTER HALF, MY EVERYTHING!
I Never needed anyone else to express MY feelings for you...
Because I know how I feel and I am not ashamed to tell the world...
I would climb to the highest mountain..
And if people could hear, oh if people could hear, from on top of the world...
I would scream to the very tip of my lungs..because you ARE worth it!
I LOVE YOU..
I Never felt this way before and I Never want the feeling to go...
That is not a "good" feeling....
That is a GREAT feeling!!!
When it comes to love...
Good doesn't exist!
Because Love requires emotion, compassion, affection, and partnership...
Good always searches for better...
And if you want love...you need Better!
You are my better!
My Great...You are the Greatest...You're the Best!
"Good" Relationships are dead relationships awaiting to be acknowledged...
If you feel it in your heart then the feeling should never be good...
Because good ALWAYS Searches for better!
Haven't you heard of the phrase:
"I'm good....could be BETTER"?
Think about it!

Are you REAL: Killing Two Birds With One Stone

Real-adjective- existing or occuring as a fact

We all know the word and have been witnesses to something that has actually happened to call it real or not. But the question that lingers on my head is "Are we ourselves real?"

Here are a couple of examples: (Some of you might hate me for this but I have to keep it "REAL")

1. A lot of you (don't take it personal if you're not one of them) "claims" that you keep it real 100%...so does that mean do you keep it real 100% everytime? Or do you keep it real 100% when you want to actually tell the truth???

2. People tend to NOT tell a story at all and instead keep it to themselves...yeah, you're not telling a lie...but at the same time, you're not telling the truth either...because you know exactly what's going on...but choose not to tell it...not saying that it's a bad thing but it's safe to say that that is not a way of keeping things "Real" if you're leaving someone in the dark about something.

3. DL, or DownLow (For those who didn't know), is a term or abbreviation in the gay community meaning "Men who likes men but keeps it on the low", One who displays TWO different lifestyles...disagree? Well here's how:

Men who are on the "Downlow" would never tell their "boys" that they have a thing for "things", neither will they ask their "girlfriend" if he could go out with other men. So what do they do? They hide their sexuality or their preferences behind a FALSE immitation of what people expect their boy to act like.....

OHHHHH but babyyyy when they get behind closed doors and no one is around...the gayness sticks out on them like a sore thumb on a newborn baby! They begin to act a different type of way because now they're not around their boys or girlfriend. See the title of this blog is about being real...not FALSE..

No diss to any of the DL dudes out there but to be truthfully honest you cannot be REAL if you're living TWO different lives!! It's time for you all to start being proud of YOU and not what people think of YOU! If your "boys" were your true friends then they will except you for who YOU are and not for what they want you to be!

SO WHAT if they don't wanna be your friend anymore...for every door that closes another one...A BETTER ONE...opens. You might find yourself new "boys" that can adjust to your lifestyle and accept you. Yes it's rare, but I never said that it's impossible either!

And think of it this way....You will get called on twice....because what if they actually find out that you're gay...NOT only will they upset at you being gay but they'll also be upset that you disrespected the friendship by not being honest to them...they'll be more hurt by that than anything else...that's just something to think about fellas!

THAT'S ONE BIRD!

Now back into the general world. We have lied...soooooo many times...about BIG things and the Little things. But of course it's a natural thing...but we too cannot say that we never lie and expect for people to believe that we keep it "REAL"...I think we would be more real if we confess of the actions that we have lied about and own up to the consequences that follows. People would not only think of us as realists...but they'll begin to have more respect because we can be honest about things.

If we lie, period, we have to keep track of what we lied about...because eventually that question will be asked again. So as time goes on, you have to make up a lie to cover up the one you told before. Before you know it...you slip up and say exactly what everyone has been blinded to believe.

Some of you may think that this topic is so weak but really think about it:

WHAT has most of your relationship breakups been over?

WHY is it that you find out the truth from someone else other than the horse's mouth?

Frequently Reasons of Breakups:

1. He's/She's not REAL!

2. He/She's UNfaithful

3. LIES, after LIES!

Get my point?

THAT'S TWO BIRDS!

So in the end, TO BE REAL, keep it 100% ALL OF THE TIME...if you lie tell the truth...you would be more of a person if you tell the truth instead living behind a false belief or statement.

Now THAT's keeping it REAL!!

"No Homo"

You've heard it before and you've heard it being used over, and over, AND OVER again. But some of us fail to realize the reason on why do people (Mostly Straight males) feel the need to use the phrase "No Homo!"

To me, personally, I do not condone in the usage of the phrase "No Homo"...simply because of these reasons:

1. You already know who YOU are and should already expect the people you talk to to know that you're not a homosexual...

2. Consistency on using the word will have people begin to believe that you are indeed a Homo.

3. IT'S FREAKING ANNOYING!

Now to put it in urban terms:

I can't seem to figure out why STRAIGHT dudes feel the need to say the phrase "No Homo"...it's like you're saying: "I'm about to say a really gay comment but I will say 'No Homo' to let them know that I'm not a homosexual" but winds up telling another guy "You ji cute"

.....are you serious?

Then, as if it isn't bad enough that you're using the word...YOU DON'T KNOW WHEN TO USE IT!!

-"The test was hard, 'NO HOMO'" ----So, you're basically saying that test papers have a penis?

-"This line is long, 'NO HOMO'" ---Yeah, I can definitely see why you would use 'NO HOMO' for that...I mean that line's penis is practically HUGE!!

People, it's bad enough that you're using the phrase so much...but now you're just overdoing it by saying it when it DOESN'T NEED TO BE SAID! Come on guys, get serious.

Another thing that upsets me is, when I'm with a STRAIGHT dude...he feels the need to say 'NO HOMO' after EVERY SINGLE SENTENCE....all I say to him is:

I DON'T WANT YOU...so by telling me that you're just sounding real stupid...just because I'm gay doesn't mean I want every boy I talk to!

So *hint hint* to all of the straight boys and girls out there, KEEP your shirt on...I respect you and will not do anything to convert or seduce you into switching teams. (The GayGay Promise :) )

Now let's put the situation on the opposite foot...what if we, as a LGBT Community were to go around saying 'NO HETERO' to people OVER and OVER and OVER again? You would feel uncomfortable and would not want to hear that anymore, right?

So......HELLOOOO!!!! How do you think we feel when we hear it from you?

So, in the end, the usage of the phrase 'No HOMO' is a useless term/saying that does not need to be used anymore...and/or should be used to a STRONG MINIMUM! You know who YOU are and you know what orientation you are...if people see you a different way, LET 'EM! You know the truth and you're mature enough to ignore it.

Jeffrey || Jeleon

Jeffrey

He is a very humble and vulnerable person...his heart is full of love and care. He cares for the people that he holds close to them, and welcomes everyone that wants to be with him. He shows his love and affection more than he tells you. He puts his best foot forward and looks back on what he has done if he done anyone harm, very apologetic. He never lets hatred and anger get to him. He turns his cheek like he was taught by the people that came before him. Although his traits and personalites benefit himself and others, there are a few in the mists that take his personality for granted...people benefit off of his generosity and affection towards others but in the end, when they're done taking what they need...they leave him alone. His relationships end in pain because many of the times he's been taken for granted. He loves hard, he loves strong, but sadly his love is the only love that is visible. This is Jeffrey...and this is his life.

Jeleon

Given to him by his grandfather, this nickname is the perfect example of his other side. He is very wild, unpredictable, aggressive, mischeivous, and somewhat carefree. He lives life as if it were his last. He does what he does and doesn't look back. He reacts to disrespect and banishes all negativity that surrounds him. He loves getting in trouble and being a bad boy. He never heard of love and would rather not know it. He is very strong when it comes to rejection as opposed to his other side, Jeffrey. Although it may sound as if this side is the worst, there is some good in him. He gives life to the lifeless, fun to the boring, and hype to the syke. He doesn't press about friends but wouldn't mind getting 1 or 2. Because he tends to be real, like Jeffrey, he has many haters. But unlike Jeffrey, Jeleon ignores it and walks on because he know that they are only making him famous. He speaks his mind only because he wants to be real. He hates fakes and don't associate with them. He is good the way he is....but seeks someone to see him out of his ways that are bad. This is Jeleon...and this is his life.

...in the end Jeffrey can be described as the careful, loving, inspiring person. Jeleon is the carefree, partying, aggressive, person. Combined is the life of me.